i had a great day on Saturday – one of those lovely days when i practiced all day – 45–60 mins at a stretch and then would take a break and do a little chore or eat or read email or whatever. 

and then yesterday i guess i felt guilty and spent the day and night doing a lot of chores and other stuff and dealing with the detritus of life – still unpacking the last boxes – the desk/study stuff – its taking me much longer than i thought

but also was in a rotten mood – partly due to the fact that i knew that there was all this STUFF to do and i kept doing it and wishing i could spend the day at the piano again.

and then i over slept the alarm this morning and woke in a really bad mood – and realized – i feel sick.  ah ha the reason for the bad mood on Sunday and this morning. 

i do not like to be sick.

it messes up my schedule – and with only a few hours to practice in the morning and THATS IT FOLKS if i miss them i am screwed for that days music.  so when the week starts its a roller coaster til Saturday.

but yet i realized it .  a big step for me.  usually i just get angry and stay that way but lately i am working on stopping and analysing whats actually  happening.  Nine times is me and my attitude.  and then i can handle whatever the issue/situation is that i THOUGHT i was angry about.

hmm.

so today i gave myself a break – i am going in an hour later – took a long hot shower to help the migraine (thats why i don’t feel good – its the start of one and they always make me feel really icky). took my medicine and ate some yogurt (about all i could handle) and read some work email – it helps so that i am not hit with issues/problems when i walk in; even made a phone call to my carpenter about some work that needed to be done and was able to handle the conversation in a calm manner.

and now off to work, even feeling crappy.

A really good thing to report – I found the RECEIPT* for my BROKEN IPOD with the applecare info etc !!!! so i can either send it in (NOT) or take it to the SOHO store and REPLACE IT…. there will be joy in mudville soon!

*see there is a reason to be packrat!