dare i say that the end may be in sight?  i shouldnt say it too loudly for the house goddesses will hear.. and we dont want to tempt them!

its been a whirlwind time lately – with my mom visiting for two weeks and lots of family and cultural activities with et al.  meanwhile, my carpenter, Bernhard Koenig, (G*D love him) and i have been working on all kinds of projects transforming the apt into a cozy comfortable and storage-filled home (i should go on Mission Organization and give tips!).  we are nearing the finish line i hope!  (for my checkbook’s sake alone).  unpacking and organizing and arranging and figuring out what goes where and … etc.  i still feel as if i am chipping away at an iceberg … i guess only when the last box is gone will i feel more settled.

this move is part of a master plan  that has grown out of a long period of aimlessness after a personal crisis several years ago.  the difference now of having some ideas of what i want to accomplish personally – not dependent on others – is relieving and invigorating if scary as h#$l.   

i adore my nephew, as he is approaching two in January is adorable – i could watch him for hours – the learning at this stage is fascinating and wondrous – he is amazing – i know, all two year olds are – but he is especially – everything is so NOW – i forgot how children live IN THE MOMENT until i have spent so much time recently with him… its all SO fluid – the happiness and joy of a sippy cup can disolve in an INSTANT to tears if something happens that displeases.  he is beginning to exert control – sit here he points, not there – and also to respond to all of us in his life.  i love asking him questions and getting his "language" in his answers – the comprehension is there if the vocabulary isnt yet – however, it grows with leaps and bounds every day.

one of my favorite memories is of the end of a very long sunday – we had been in the city (brunch with a large party of family and then to my brotherinlaw’s studio and then playing in the park and then to whole foods and then to a family partyof my brotherinlaw’s- it had been almost 10 hours and as my sister dropped me off and i got out of the car – he sobbed to see me go – my heart melted when she told me the next day – to be a part of a child’s life, i think, is one of the joys of living.